Cowboys and Indians

Evelyn Trilling Milhender , 16 year book picture.

 I have been smoking a lot of our own home grown weed lately. My body, after two major operations is stiff. So, I smoke to relax the muscles and retrain them to work, and relax.

Some morning I wake up and ever after the morning coffee, I still  am rather spacy. I can live with this if my body and all its muscles are regaining skills, and strength. 

Some time during this August's record breaking HEAT WAVE, I stopped  doing my knee exercise. I was having a lot of sciatic nerve pain from my left side of my lower back down the leg and ending in the burning sensation in my left foot. The burning lasts long than the electric wave of pain going down my leg. It feels like being hit by lightning and can't be stopped once it starts.

Sometime, I can't use my left leg as the pain is so great. I must wait for the storm to pass, and then cautiously try the first step with my left foot.

So I puff the magic dragon and go on with my life. My mother Evelyn taught me so many life lessons, it is hard for me not to miss her since her death at 96. She lived way too long. She had many strokes before she died. The Last time I visited her, she was having great difficulty speaking. We sat in her living room and watch the black and westerns that she so loved. I could from her face that she was thinking hard how to communicate with me. Then she smiled at me and made clicking noises with her tongue. Slowly I understood the sounds she was making, they were the noise a horse makes as they walk. Click, click, click and click. I love her so much.