Monday, April 12, 2021

Hitting a Brick Wall of Old Memories and Stories at 3:30am



 Full Steam ahead.....the mind is rushing, the thoughts are flying through space at a record speed and I am sitting at my desk at 3:30am with head cat in residence as my supervisor.

I miss David, it is spring and he is the spring guy who brought the beauty of  birds as the returned to our yard to mate, play and have their young. The joy of the warblers, bright, bold, and fast moving in the tops of the trees. 

I miss my old life.  The coming of the fourth pandemic round is terrifying me. Even with two covid shots in me, I feel cold and alone.

The weather is 70 one day and next day the sea winds chill my bones and I hide under the feather comforter for warmth and security.

I am having alone one huge  panic attack that is creeping up on me. I don't recognize my thoughts, actions or being. I am alone in my mind.



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