Saturday, May 9, 2020

Pandemic Blues, May Snow, and Feeling Alone

"That’s why there is this sledgehammer of now-ness: whoa, this is this constant thing that is happening, and it is not just going away because we want it to. We’re really forced to lean into the sharp edges more than ever. We are standing on a sharp edge. We are sitting on it. [laughs] And the really cool thing about Pema Chödrön’s wisdom-style, is about — it’s about, be curious. There’s a kind of underlying, approach this fear, and approach this anxiety, and approach this heartbreak with curiosity — like, oh this is interesting. I’m an interested tourist here, checking it out, taking photos. I don’t actually live in this place." Devendra Banhart/ On Being/ When Things Fall Apart with  Krista TippettGreat show today.Lots of food for thought. Don't run away from problems, run to them, investigate them, learn from them. 

The pandemic is making me feel very lonely. No one to hug. Very few people to talk to ....the old fashioned way...you know face to face. Not computer to computer contact. Real live contact and personal contact up close and intimate. Rubbing shoulders, touching hands, and smelling the other person. For good or bad. It has always been what I have done. Hug, rub, pat, touch and make people smile or smile at people. We hid away in our homes to avoid getting sick. We go out with masks on to avoid getting sick. I long to talk to people's full face. Eye contact is ok, but, it does not give you the full communication of face contact. Full face contact, the lips, the nose, the teeth, the red cheeks, and all the above pieces of the face together. Together, right here in front of me. Yes, now I see you, I understand you, I relate to you. Oh the joy when we drop the masks and again run around with naked faces. Free to feel the air touch us. Naked faces that show wear and tear, love and hate, age and youth. 

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