My dark Shadow

 I feel that my dark shadow which has been with me since my sister died, is going away. Grief is a slow and personal time. It comes and goes without my control. But, lately I feel lighter, more joyful, and happier. My back is stronger, I am walking with confidence and there is a bounce in my walk now. 

I am learning water color painting, continuing  with my art journal, and still blogging to myself. 

Fall has arrived, the feather comforter is on the  bed and I have started switching my Hawaiian shirts and shorts to fleece jackets and layers.

I go into this new years a different person, a person more confident and alive. Judy has asked me to start living again by ringing my outside bell and I am going forward. Miss you Judy.

Fall Arrives With Rain

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 First day of Fall and the weather is cooler, rainier, and windier.

The change of season is never good news to my body. Changes cause pain in hands, back and attitude.

I finished my first watercolor that I liked. Free style. Cooked lentil vegetable soup last night. It had no tomatoes in it. I had harisa for some tomato flavor, and it also spiced up the soup.

Today Lee had a surprise birthday brunch. Bagels, and Donuts. How could you go wrong. Zoey was the door greater. 

Glenn thinks its time I have a neighborhood party. Maybe for Halloween.

I am back taking walks. Feels so good.

  Nothing is better than spending time out in nature. This Fall has been very dry, but very wonderful. Great weather for walking, hanging out on the deck, and reading outside. 

Losing a sister is harder than going thru medipause

There is no end to the grief and sadness. No advance warning if cying and sorrow.

Art Journal is keeping me sane (well almost)

I took a Susan Spellman class on art journaling. From the get go, I loved it. Her advice was "draw like you were in kindergarten. Fabulous advise. When I am journaling my mind is open to all and any ideas that fly around my mind. I purchased water color pens, notebook and  to France to cruise on a canal boat. Very relaxing. I was still very much grieving my sister Judy's passing. 

So, I stayed on the boat as she slowly glided down the canal. Slowly, a person could walk faster than this boat. I sat on the open front deck between the hot tub and the front door. There were tables and chairs there. I loved thee spot, the quiet, the waves, the skies, the frogs, the birds,,,I loved it. My mind was open to art colors, shapes, and my journal. What joy. What a gift Susan gave me. She gave me a door that opened my mind to joy, and took away  hours of sadness. 

She gave me peace.

Spring has sprung.

 

The flocks of birds are coming back all together.  Hummingbirds, Baltimore Oreos, Goldfinch, Phoebe, chickadees, titmice, pileated woodpecker, Great Egrets, and many more. We leave tomorrow night, to fly to France for a vacation.  Looking forward to great food, Almost forgot to mention the eclipse.

Summer Moves on

 It has been either very dry or very wet here this summer.