Meow. When did I ever say that I listen to what I tell other people?
Live life in its fullest.
Haven't, I always said that. How many times did I say that. Thousands of times. Over and over. Millions times.
When, did I stop listening to myself? Did it happen during the ten year period before I retired when I was forced to work government temp jobs. Jobs from hell each of them. Rude bosses, lots of yelling and screaming, learning new jobs, new policies, and new people. Boy, it was really the pits. But, I don't think that is the time I started to unlisten to myself.
What it The Change of Life??
That fun time of feeling like your body was totally out of control, you know what comes next. The feeling that you are totally out of your mind. I did talk to myself alot during those lovely years.
Was it being in pretty much constant pain and muscle spasms? Think you are getting closer. I don't like to dwell on this subject. No one knows what it is like when your entire body, section by section is destroying its functions ... like... walking, sitting, standing ...that's a bad one and sleeping....oh yes that is a good one.
It is depressing when you are out with a friend and you knee stops working like it alway has. It is painful. It is sad. It is a huge challenge to even the most optimistic people. To put it bluntly, it is a HuGe Deal!!! It is a deal breaker, a nut cracker, a strike to inner self.
